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  • A Challenging Start

    The New Year began, filled with promise of better days. Harry was looking better, and he was enjoying working on Jackie Joyner Kersee in the studio.

    On January 3, a Saturday morning, daughter Anne came out for a visit. We enjoyed coffee and pastries, and Anne was pleased to see how well her father was looking.

    Harry got up to walk to the bathroom. As he crossed the kitchen, he tripped on the foot of a chair that he has walked past for 20 years without ever touching it. He fell onto the hardwood floor. To avoid hitting his head, he twisted to the side, and catastrophically broke his left hip. It was dreadful.

    Anne was a big help, comforting Harry on the floor. I called 911 and an ambulance was dispatched. The dogs were locked into the bedroom, cars were moved, and I called Jane to wait near the mailboxes and direct the ambulance to the house. Harry’s pain was almost unbearable, and the three paramedics dealt with a difficult carry out of the house, with great compassion and expertise.

    I followed the ambulance. Harry’s condition was so dire, that it was decided to take him to a closer hospital than our usual St. Luke’s. He was taken to Progress West, which is a BJC hospital in St. Charles County.

    The Emergency Room waiting area was like something out of The Pitt. It was a Full Moon, which often portends trouble, and it looked like there were many troubles at hand.

    After a while, I was allowed back to the room where Harry had been taken. A day of very bad luck, shifted to a few bits of better luck. On the way to the hospital, I had called Brett, who made some calls to his medical contacts. He sent me a list of four surgeons, and advised we use one of them.

    The PA on Harry’s case turned out to be Kelley Dufour, a horse person with whom I had worked at The Tack Trunk. We both showed pinto horses years ago, until Kelley became a medical professional. A familiar face was a huge reassurance in a terrible time. Also, Dr. McLaughlin was on the list, and on call. He stopped in and confirmed that Harry’s hip was badly broken. I will not publish a picture, since some people do not like medical photos, but the head of the femur was dislocated, and the bone was snapped raggedly in two, below the joint.

    The best luck of all, as everyone who knows us will understand, is Jane, who lives next door, and who immediately stepped in to look after the animals while I stayed with Harry. I decided the horses could just live outside for the winter. They have a shed, and thick winter coats.

    After what seemed an eternity, Harry was moved to a room in the hospital. The pain was unspeakable. Because he was on blood thinners, there was little relief they could give him. His blood pressure was very low after three doses of fentanyl in the ambulance. Other pain meds at the hospital complicated his precarious condition.

    On Saturday night, Harry was moved to ICU. To my astonishment, I was allowed to stay with him. Every bed in the hospital, including ICU, was equipped with a couch that became a bed for family wanting to stay. Thanks to Jane, I could stay for the duration.

    Sunday morning, Harry was able to get a nerve block in the hip, which gave him some relief. Several doctors convened at the bedside to explain to Harry that his case was too much for this small hospital. He needed a hospital with more resources. They were putting in a transfer to MOBap, or Big Barnes. Two things stood in the way of that.

    As I mentioned, it was a Full Moon weekend. Both of those bigger hospitals had no ICU beds available. Brett had warned me that his contacts told him the “health census” was very high, making a move problematic. Additionally, Harry did not want to be moved. The big hospitals are farther from home, and Harry wanted to die at home with his dog if things didn’t work out.

    Then, Dr. McLaughlin, the young surgeon (who was on Brett’s list) showed up. He admitted that Harry was a complicated case, because of his heart and lung issues. But he said he could do the surgery in 15 minutes, which would mean only one hour of general anesthesia. Harry chose to cancel the request for transport, stay at Progress West, and take his chances. In addition to the compassion and confidence of Dr. McLaughlin, there was the fact that he would be able to do the surgery Monday morning, whereas Tuesday would be the earliest possibility if Harry was moved. Every 24 hours elapsing after a hip fracture before repair, increases the odds of mortality significantly.

    Monday morning, Harry went to surgery. I waited anxiously in the high tech surgery waiting room, with electronic displays revealing each patient’s progress through the procedures.

    Dr. McLaughlin came out and told me that all had gone well, and someone would come and get me when Harry was conscious again. The display read “Phase 1”. I asked the lady at the desk what that meant, and she told me it meant that he was in recovery.

    Time proceeded very slowly. After an hour, I asked the lady at the desk if there was a “Phase 2”. No, she said, someone will come and get you.

    I was filled with dread and waiting in a chair near the elevators, directly ahead of the doors to surgery. Two hours had gone by. The doors opened, and I saw Dr. McLaughlin coming toward me. I feared the worst news. Then, he saw me, and said “What are you doing here?”.

    “Waiting to be called back to Harry”, I replied. Dr. McLaughlin told me the patient had been back in his room for over an hour. I was so relieved, I did not mind at all that I had been overlooked. I rushed back to ICU, where Harry was awake and alert, and had assumed I was talking to someone, and had forgotten about him!

    Jane brought the dogs to the hospital, and Weedy, who is support dog trained, was allowed to visit Harry in the ICU room! That certainly contributed to Harry’s recovery. Eddy enjoyed the trip, but his enthusiasm is beyond therapeutic, so he waited outside.

    On Thursday, Harry was removed from Intensive Care, and suddenly, on Friday, January 9, we were discharged from the hospital. We hired a wheelchair van to transport Harry home. Jane helped me move all the furniture to accommodate the patient’s needs. Jane had also gone to Walgreen’s for a commode and had seen a “Transport Chair”, and purchased it. It’s like a wheel chair, but lighter and has no large wheels – a VERY handy piece of equipment I would never have even known about, if not for Jane!

    So, now Harry is home and recovering. Why have I not posted sooner? Well, being a full time caregiver is a lot of work, and I am exhausted most of the time. Meanwhile, Jane is doing all of the outdoor work, feeding and caring for the horses and barn cats, and doing all of our shopping.

    Amongst all the misery and bad luck that started this New Year, we are astounded by the good fortune we have had at every turn. Our greatest good fortune is, obviously, Jane’s friendship and heroic work ethic. She is right next door and all the animals know and love her, so it was an easy (for us) transition to her care.

    Brett was a hero in medical guidance, and being a surgeon himself, came here to check Harry’s site and dressing when Dr. McLaughlin was called out of town on a family emergency. A doctor’s house call, which included all sorts of delicious food, is legendary good luck these days!

    Dr. McLaughlin being on the list and on call, was auspicious. All of the medical professionals at Progress West were kind and capable. We will always be grateful to the skilled Warren County Ambulance crew for guiding us to that closer hospital, this side of the river.

    Which is not to discount our doctors at St. Luke’s, who kept in touch and monitored Harry’s situation throughout the ordeal. Medically, we are holding aces, as the saying goes.

    We are here, in this beautiful place, where we can see birds, and horses and even coyotes. Every day is a blessing, despite the news of the outside world that makes us weep.

    Anyway, this post is to bring readers up to speed. My aim is to return to daily blogging. In the meantime, here are some pictures…

    Be safe (don’t trip), be well, be grateful. Sometimes, even a disaster brings serendipity. Slava Ukraine! Peace…

  • Shorter Days – November 22

    As the November days get shorter, this week has been filled with medical matters and not many adventures to relate.

    On Monday, Harry was scheduled for a cardioversion the following day. He has been through a lot since September 15, when his health took a bad turn. The cardioversion was to correct atrial fibrillation that has been going on for some time, so it took longer for Harry to bounce back than he has done in the past. But he is very gradually getting better, and has even managed some work in the studio.

    Today, I was honored (and very apprehensive) to actually help in the studio. It fell to me to remove Jackie Joyner Kersee’s head! Harry guided me (and took a couple of pictures), and I am relieved to say I did not ruin the sculpture.

    Now, the head will be sculpted on a table and reattached at a future date. It is a great honor to be involved in the project!

    Eddy wants to be part of the sculpture!

    We have had some dreary November weather, but also some warm temperatures, and I have managed a little bit of time outside, which is always good for my soul. At long last, there is moisture in the ground, enough to plant some very late Fall bulbs.

    Yesterday, I spent the morning getting a haircut and running some errands, which included a stop at The Tack Trunk. Eddy was delighted to join me. He loves visiting The Tack Trunk, as do I.

    Weedy, meanwhile, looked after Harry while Eddy and I were gallivanting.

    Attentive Weedy

    Bart came in from a damp day, ate his dinner, then had a good roll and a laugh.

    Marmalade awaits me every afternoon to remind me to open a can of food for the barn cats.

    Marmalade

    It is time for Project Feederwatch – the counting of birds. It is more difficult than counting foxhounds from horseback.

    We are enjoying a quiet weekend, with another medical visit in store next Tuesday. This evening, there was a sliver of moon rising at evening. We are surrounded by beauty here, and grateful for every day.

    New moon

    Be safe, be well, be strong. Be grateful and kind. Slava Ukraini!!! Peace.

  • Busy Saturday – November 15

    Friday was an exhausting day at Pulmonary Rehab, along with frustrating efforts to get accustomed to new equipment. Every day seems to lack enough hours to get everything done, but the weather has been warm and beautiful, windows open at night.

    Today we had visits from two nephews! First, nephew Luke stopped on his way back to Kansas City for a visit, with his new dog, Caly. She is a lovely dog, reminiscent of Mona, and Eddy was smitten. They had a blast playing together, while we enjoyed catching up with Luke.

    Luke has very long hair!

    Shortly after that nephew departed, nephew Scott arrived. He joined us for lunch and we had nice reminiscences about Harry’s mother, Edna. Scott has much family history knowledge, which I find fascinating. Before he left, I enlisted his help to get the mower into the horse trailer, which involves removing partitions, a difficult job for a tired old lady! Scott sent some nice pictures.

    I have not had much time for bird photos lately, but here are a couple.

    Eddy provides many photo opportunities throughout the day. Yesterday morning started with this…

    Harry tried to teach Eddy to use a smartphone.

    Eddy loves his chew bone.

    Harry loves Weedy… and Roscoe.

    Eddy loves everyone!

    Be safe, be well, rest and recover. Be grateful and kind. Slava Ukraini! Peace…

  • Thursday – November 13

    A sad anniversary today. Thirty-seven years ago, in 1988, November 13 was a Sunday. Harry and I were driving home from Galena, Illinois, where we had been fox hunting. I was a professional huntsman in those long ago days. Unknown to us, as we were driving south to Missouri, my friend Ann Miller Roth and her husband, Jerry, were killed instantly in Florida that evening in a dreadful automobile accident. I learned of it on Thursday, I think. My life has felt Ann’s absence ever since. Now that I am old, I often muse about Ann and Jack always being young in memories, and departing together, albeit early. And now, on we go… carrying fewer memories than we had hoped for.

    Well, from that gloomy reminiscence let’s focus on yesterday, which was a glorious Fall day. My brother, Michael, came for a visit, which gladdened us immensely. We had a nice visit, a meager lunch, and Michael and I took a postprandial walk through the woods, shin deep in dry leaves. It was great fun.

    On our walk, I took a picture of the new electric lines that have gone up (and I do mean UP) to our south. A data center is likely coming to our county. More electricity is called for, and a dreaded use of water, apparently, which is worrisome, as we continue with drought conditions here.

    A terrible blight on the landscape, just south of the back hay field

    Yesterday evening, there was a chance of another view of the Northern Lights (Aurora Borealis), but we only had a faint glimpse, not the wild red glow from Tuesday.

    Wednesday night’s faint Northern Light

    There is much to celebrate here, of course. The witch hazel is positively luminous this year.

    Witch hazel beneath the ash tree

    And the animals, wild and tame, are treasures.

    Too many pictures tonight, perhaps, with not much news. Better times will come, and this evening provided a beautiful sunset…

    Be safe, be well, laugh often. Be grateful and kind. Slava Ukraini! Peace…

  • Veterans Day – November 11

    At the eleventh hour of the eleventh day of the eleventh month in 1918, Armistice Day marked the end of “the war to end all wars”. A noble aspiration perhaps, and pointless, obviously, but it established a day on which we celebrate Veterans of all wars.

    Harry in WWI uniform aboard Thomas Equinas

    Yes, Harry is a veteran, though not of World War I vintage. He was on River Patrol Boats in Vietnam, not on a chestnut Thoroughbred! But he had an old WWI uniform, and it fit.

    Here is actual photographic evidence of Harry’s service…

    My Irish paternal family, the Barrys, sent three sons from two generations to both World Wars.

    Great Uncle Gerard Barry was badly wounded as a balloonist in the Royal Observer Corps, and later sadly died when accidentally shot by a sentry in Cork in 1921. I have his silver matchbox.

    Great Uncle John Redmond Barry was a decorated (CBE, DSO) Brigadier General in the Royal Army in the First War and the Second War, where he was among the last out of Dunkirk. While recovering from being seriously wounded at Passchendaele in WWI, he married Great Aunt Mary, a union that lasted 61 years.

    Great Uncle John was a horseman and a keen fox hunter. Visiting him in Wexford, when I was sixteen, had a profound influence on my life

    As for my grandfather, James Harding Barry, he served with great distinction in the First War (D.S.O., M.C., R.A.M.C.).

    Excerpted from “Not Blind To Duty” by Gerald Gallagher :

    In August 1914, leaving a note on his desk reading “Off to the War”, Dr. Barry joined the Royal Army Medical Corps, receiving his commission on 11 September.  Assigned to the London Regiment, he spent three years in France as a regimental medical officer.  Being an unassuming person, Dr. Barry spoke little of his experiences in later years, though others of the regiment enjoyed recounting his exploits.  A typical anecdote describes how, during a search for wounded in No Man’s Land at night, he bumped into a German soldier.  Putting his pipe into the man’s back and ordering “Hande Hoch!”, he brought back a valuable prisoner.


    Jim, as my grandfather was known, wrote an autobiography, describing his time in the trenches, which is a great treasure.

    James Harding Barry

    My grandfather was the only one of those three brothers to have children, and his three sons, Uncle Pete, Uncle Mike, and Brian, my father, all served in World War II and all survived. Uncle Pete was in Royal Naval Intelligence at Scapa Flow, Uncle Mike was in the RAF as a paratrooper, and was the first man to land on “A Bridge Too Far” at Arnhem. He was wounded, and taken prisoner by the Germans, but he came home to become a beloved country doctor. The youngest son, Brian, was an officer in the Royal Navy aboard HMS Orion at D-Day.

    Uncle Pete at age 89
    Uncle Mike (L) strolling with Prince Charles (R)
    James Brian Barry

    To the men who served in my generation, Welcome Home. Here is Harry with Tony at The Wall in Washington D.C. on their Honor Flight last year.

    Honor the warrior, not the war – Tony and Harry

    Finally, to celebrate our Veterans, the skies lit up tonight with Northern Lights, even way south, here in Missouri. How lucky we are to be alive to see such a sky! Niece Rachael, from Montana, texted us to make sure we didn’t miss the show. It is only the second time I have ever seen the Northern Lights.

    The Northern lights in Bozeman, Montana
    The Northern Lights in Warren County, Missouri

    Be safe, be well, enjoy this magical world! Be grateful and kind. Slava Ukraini! Peace…

  • Cold – November 10

    Frost came a month later than usual this year, but hard on its heels, we have had a hard freeze, and all the flowers that toughed out the frost are now knocked out until next Spring. Knowing this was coming, I took a few pictures on Saturday morning.

    The light is beautiful at this time of year. Saturday was a beautiful day, but I had to get plants situated indoors, knowing the hard freeze was nearly here. As always happens with every project I undertake, mistakes were made…

    Artwork was returned to us from the gallery, as they prepare for another upcoming show. Some pieces remain on consignment at McCaughen & Burr, many pieces were sold, but it is nice to have some Weber sculptures back in the house again.

    Harry continues to make slow progress. It is hard work, recovering! He remains cheerful and we await some equipment that will make life easier, we hope. For now, we are quite accustomed to the oxygen tether.

    Much of today was snarled in phone calls and efforts to arrange medical matters. That effort will continue tomorrow morning, then we go into St. Louis for pulmonary rehab and oxygen. It is very frustrating that the oxygen supplier needs us to be at home for delivery, but cannot tell us when they will be here (and they only com out this far on Tuesdays and Thursdays), so we have to go to them tomorrow to trade in empty canisters.

    The dogs make up for all the medical irritations. Weedy is a source of peace, and Eddy a source of hilarity.

    We never tire of the sight of horses…

    Bart in late afternoon light

    Cats are tucked into the heated tack room. Sixteen year old Skittle shares a bed with Rosie, which warms my heart.

    Roscoe shares our bed, where he is well camouflaged.

    Tom Morris made the most of Saturday’s warm sunshine on the back porch steps.

    This evening, I finished in the barn just in time to catch the last of the red sky at night in the west…

    Be safe, be well, get better. Be kind, and grateful. Slava Ukraini! Peace…

  • Friday – November 7

    Well, it was beautiful, warm weather today, after our first frost yesterday. Every day presents another step toward improvement in Harry’s condition, but it is a very gradual progression, and not much noteworthy day to day. But here are the horses, as the first frost began to lift yesterday…

    Anticipating the frost, I took a few pictures of plants that will be going dormant.

    The cats are always picture worthy creatures.

    Since not much of interest has happened, here is a flashback to October 19, when we attended the unveiling of a new mural in Treloar along the Katy Trail…

    Treloar (in the old 19th century Treloar Mercantile Bank building) is the site of the Ted and Pat Jones Welcome Center on the Katy Trail, a Rails to Trails state park that crosses the state of Missouri and attracts bicyclists from all over the world. Dan and Connie Burkhardt are great ambassadors for this truly unique attraction and benefit to Missouri. I have “through biked” the Katy Trail several times, and it has provided some of my favorite memories. Our friend, Sharon, is a Katy Trail expert, and a Fearless Leader and arranger of biking adventures.

    Bicyclists from Colorado visited Treloar for a short rest before continuing down the trail on a beautiful day…

    Be safe, be well, get better! Have adventures! Be grateful and kind. Slava Ukraini! Peace…

  • Full Moon – November 5

    The full Beaver Moon shoe brightly through the eastern woods this evening after a glorious autumn day, squandered by annoying bureaucracy. I literally spent hours on the telephone, much of that time dealing with a robotic AI intermediary, or on hold listening to bad music on repeat.

    The horses enjoyed the pleasant day. When I bring them in, I lead Bart to his stall, and Stone and Oisin come in on their own. Stone is very reliable, but Oisin has lately been a bit naughty, wandering around a little for fun. Privileges may be revoked.

    For the most part, horses stay with their herd. Rarely does one horse stray far. But there is always an exception to every rule with horses.

    I was bringing horses in on a summer morning when horse flies were bad. We had a pony named Brownie and he bolted away from me when bitten by a fly, before I had a halter or a rope on him, but the gate was open. The other horses were already in the barn, so I expected him to join them. No such luck. He trotted south toward the studio, then picked up a canter and disappeared. I followed with a halter and grain, not too worried. But then, I heard hooves on the wooden footbridge over the creek. I ran out to the back field, and there was no sign of Brownie. I returned to the barn, and enlisted Harry to drive around searching, while I saddled a horse and looked through the woods. We called the sheriff and reported Brownie missing. Eventually, Harry found him off a road to the west, happily grazing on a lawn and being adored by a little girl. We reported him found, brought him home, and from then on, we were careful to capture Brownie before letting the gate swing open.

    The dogs enjoyed this lovely day, with the back door open to the pen, while Harry and I went to Pulmonary Rehab for the first time. It was very encouraging. I think it will be a little bit like taking riding lessons twice a week, though not quite as much fun.

    Most flowers are worn out now, but the lantana continues to brighten my walk to the barn.

    Be safe, be well, be grateful and be kind. Slava Ukraini! Peace…

  • Horses – November 4

    Horses have been my passion since before I can remember, if my mother is to be believed. She related that my first word was “hoss”. Before we moved to this country, when we lived in Kent, our milk was delivered by horse drawn wagon. The horses, Silver and Dolly, lived in a nearby field and I loved to feed a piece of bread to the hard working animals.

    Well, now my fondest dreams have been realized, and I have had a life with horses. I am the one doing the hard work. Harry and I often say that if aliens came down from outer space and observed us for a day or two, they would assume we humans were servants of the other creatures – dogs, cats and horses.

    They are a great deal of work… but at least they are very expensive, too!

    All of the animals bring us immense joy, but horses in particular are magical. They outweigh us by more than ten times. We are as small in relation to our horses as Roscoe, the cat is in relation to us! Yet they allow us to boss them around and ride them, and they entertain us with their antics. We are astonished daily by how lucky we are to live with these creatures.

    Harry has two passions, of course – the animals and the artwork. He is able to enjoy the horses from the window, and the dogs and cats are paws on helping him recover. Soon he will be back in the studio, where Jackie Joyner Kersee awaits him…

    And that is all from here after another day on the road to recovery…

    Be safe, be well, get better! Be grateful for small improvements. They add up. Slava Ukraini! Peace…

  • Moon Shadows – November 3

    Two days yet until the full Beaver Moon, and the moon tonight was so bright it threw shadows as I went to the barn for night check. And, oh, yes, we transitioned to daytime turnout when Harry returned from the hospital. While he was there, the horses stayed out day and night.

    Slow progress toward improvement continues, with Weedy and Eddy doing all they can to keep Harry happy.

    This has been a particularly difficult Autumn, but for all the beauty of the season, it has for years been shadowed with some sadness. For consolation, I turn to animals and Nature, which we have in abundance.

    It has been a strange change of season. The light has altered, as it always does, but we have not had a real frost yet. The first frost date used to fall in the first week of October! Also, the lilac and clematis have rebloomed recently, which is very unusual.

    I had my camera handy while up at the mailbox and happened to see Jane’s Sandy enjoying the proverbial greener grass on the other side of the fence…

    Back at the house, the dogs and Roscoe provide great comfort and healing to both Harry and me. We are very fortunate!

    Be safe, be well, be kind, be grateful. Slava Ukraini! Peace…